Purpose, Purpose, Wherefore Art Thou Purpose

I know it's been a while since I've written one of these and I think that's because I haven't wanted to think for a while. I've been too busy with work and school and watching a lot of Youtube and Netflix.

I'm just being honest here.

I don't like to think about my future. I just don't. I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life and I get really stressed just thinking about. No joke, I've literally had panic attacks at the mere thought of what I'm going to do with my life. 

I have no idea what I want to do for a career, Not only do I not have a boyfriend, I don't even have any guys I would look twice at right now, so starting a family is waaaaay far away for me. 

I want to find my purpose that God has called me to. 

However, I don't hear the calling right now. And while I'm trying to be OK with that, I can't help but worrying like the crazy person I am. 

I have to remember that there are people in the bible that weren't called until they were much, much older than I am. That's encouraging, at least. 

I want to travel, that's one thing I've always known I wanted to do. But do you know how incredibly expensive it is? REALLY EXPENSIVE. Why does it cost so much? Why do they want everyone to stay where they are? 

Sigh... well, I'll wait for God to make whatever He wants me to do obvious, Until then...

Anyone up for a road trip?

Fool Of A Took

My favorite character from Lord of the Rings is definitely Gandalf (I'm sorry if you've never seen these movies. If you haven't, skip to the 4th section).  He pretty much has been since the first time I saw it. I like to think I'm like him, you know: natural leader, wise, sarcastic, powerful...

Unfortunately, I'm probably more like Pippen.

We were watching the first LOTR movie the other day and we were almost to the scene in the mines of Moria, where they're trying not to be detected by the goblins and they get to the tomb. Pippen, in all his Pippen-glory, accidentally causes a whole skeleton to fall down the well and it echoes through the whole mine. And when you watch that scene and you just cringe because you feel so bad for him.

I did something really stupid like that.

While we were watching LOTR, we started to get hungry and it's around dinner time, so we decide we want pizza. And I am the one who went out to go get it.

Now, we always get pizza from Papa Murphy's. It's delicious. I go, I get it and I put it on top of the car so I can open the door, put the pizza in the seat next to me, and drive home. Simple right? I've done it lots of times before...

To make a long story short, I didn't take it off the roof.

I couldn't find it anywhere and I felt sick.

Have you ever done something that ridiculously stupid that you just want to hit yourself in the head and throw up at the same time? That's how I felt.

I went back, explained the situation to the people working at Papa Murphy's, and they laughed. I would have too, in fact, I did.

They gave me another pizza for a discount and I remembered to put it in my car this time.

.......This is not the end of the story.

To top this all off, I actually found the pizza the next day. On the back of my car.

Not in the back of my car, on it.

That's right, I missed the big, giant pizza on the freaking back of my car. I had been driving around with it for a half a day!

You may take a moment to go "wow." Or do a facepalm. It's up to you.

I'm ok with being a dork most of the time, but sometimes, dang. I cannot believe some of the stupid crap I do.

Well. that's it. Feel free to share any stories like that, if you have them. It might make me feel better. Until next time, have a great week and you are loved.